you with the sad eyes

Pope Benedict XVI asleep at his post 

during an outdoor Mass in Valletta, Malta.

It feels like so much has happened since I last posted, I've been on such a rollercoaster of emotions. Yes I know that's a cliche but it's true.

Thursday, school was shit, but that was to be expected. I don't know why I bother going anymore.

They only highlight of the day, was walking home I started crying. Everything was just overwhelming me and I felt so alone. Then out of nowhere, I hear coming out of my school bag 'Don't worry, I'm determined to succeed! Follow my lead.. and yes indeed...' (for those musical theatre dummies, it's the opening of a song from wicked)

Only one of my friends has that ringtone, and I just started to sob because I really needed her at that moment. I turned around and there she was, running towards me and sweeping me up in a hug.

I love you Ellen.

So she looked after me and helped me pack and prepare for the horror that was going to be Friday.

It's nice to know some of my friends still care about me.

I got lovely letters from Holly and Caitlin and an email from Erinna. I wish I went to school with you guys.

miss you all.

Mum and I drove down to Albury that night so I spent some time with my gorgeous little cousin which was nice.

Then it was the funeral Friday. It was awful.

Seeing both my parents cry and staring at the coffin.

I think it gave me some closure though, but it was still really difficult.

infriga xx

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