optimism

so, I'm feeling a lot better since Monday.

I think I reached a tipping point on Wednesday when I just realised that he wasn't worth it anymore.

That he was such a liar and a coward and that he doesn't deserve me anyway.

It's really nice to be able to feel positive again. To have things to smile about. 

I'm totally ignoring him at school and I'm just getting on with life. 

I'm not going to say it doesn't still hurt, because it does and part of me will always love him.

I was going through photos from Year 11 for the yearbook and kept coming across photos of him. That made me think back to some of our memories and feel a bit sad. 

I think I don't miss him anymore after what he did, but I miss having a boyfriend.

Someone to cuddle and someone to look out for you.

But I'll get there. 

It is nice laughing and smiling again.