does it ever stop hurting?

I thought I was coping and getting better and moving on.

But I'm not.

I'm still crazily in love with him.

It still hurts every day.

I still hold that small hope that he'll change his mind and remember everything and come back. 

I don't know what to do.

I miss him every moment of every day. 

I miss myself as well. I miss feeling positive and excited about things. 

I've had my braces off for a week and not very many reasons to smile. 

I fell asleep in Legal Studies today because I'm still not sleeping properly.

Everyone said it would get easier.

Well it's been nearly two weeks and I still can't function properly.

Won't someone take the pain away and bring him back to me? 

friday night

so it's been a while, hi to all those loyal readers out there....

or basically Hi Miranda.

I have no faith that anyone else actually reads this, so if you do please comment, it will make me feel loved. 

so, this week I've been sick, which has been adding to the wonderful mood I've been in lately.

*cough sarcasm* 

so lets make a list, I like lists. 

THINGS GEORGIA HAS LEARNT THIS WEEK

* being sick sucks

* grandparents get grumpy when you won't tell 

them why you aren't going out with someone anymore

* music is hard

* apparently being dumped is not a legitimate 

reason to get out of Year 12 homework

* I miss Holly

* mice aren't good at dnms

* no braces feel funny

* retainers make you talk silly

and the fatal blow

* jules is never getting back with me. 

another week is over

so, it's sunday night again.

valentines day.

chinese new year.

st kilda festival sunday

this time last week I was happy in love, worried about homework.

now I'm heartbroken, sunburnt and still worried about homework.

I feel quite sick actually.

my head is spinning and I feel a little like I'm going to throw up.

so this will be a short post. I should sleep.

went to st kilda fest today to cheer me up.

was good with nice friends and such, but I can't get my mind off him.

I'm still hurt. and shocked at what he did.

But tomorrow I get my braces off, which is actually something to look forward to.

I refuse to avoid him at school, he's the coward here not me.

but life goes on. I have to keep going.

it's so hard and it still hurts but you keep going.

chalk it all up to experience.

I've added a tiger here, because it is now the year of the tiger for chinese new year and also to remind myself to keep my dignity and stay strong like a tiger.